Adults vs Kids

10 year old- "What are you doing tomorrow?"

22 year old- "Adult stuff."

After months of so much dedication. Silent cheering. 

My baby just got the Adult card played.  Super sad face. 

Super sad heart.

Lost Connections

 I'm reading this book that is purposing the idea that antidepressants don't work. That the reason we are depressed or anxious is because of traumas in our life. That really sucks. I need antidepressants to work. I need the hope that they make me feel better. 

Time line of triggers:

abuse

"big thighs"

Josh Strobels death

college

mission

marriage

others porn

gas lighting

"Your Vile"

Rainy

Carson

It states that we need hope. We need connections. We need a person, or people. That it is not a chemical imbalance, it's grief. Loss of connection. I am intrigued by the idea of actually who I have ever been connected to. 

Rocks

 I've always had an obsession with rocks. Not the little ones. Like the ones that we landscape our yard with. But, as my body gets older, I am thinking I might be over it. They are heavy. And, the wheelbarrow doesn't work. And, they are heavy, and my yard is big. Hopefully, I can be done with the rocks for a very long time.