Grandmas

Over Christmas I had a really weird thing happen. I went into a deep sorrow for the loss of my Grandmothers. It was so intense and so consuming, one night, I full on texted a friend who is a medium. I had to know 'what' and 'why.'
This is what she said:
"They said part of it is because it is the holidays and you are trying hard to 'feel' the Christmas magic, but it is kind of empty this year. And, there is a part of you that just really longs to feel how you did when you were younger."
She said, "From my perspective the moon is full and Mercury just went to retrograde. that can draw old grief to the surface."
Then, "What are you doing for you? Are you getting any free time at all? You feel anxious and rushed. Make sure that you do things to honor them this holiday. Make their cookies, their rolls, or other treats and make sure that theres's an ornament on your tree that represents each one of them. I will ask them both to see if they can come and see you in a dream and give you a love. It feels like that's what you really need is a good grandma hug."
Kinda of made me weep. Not cry. Weep.
I could close this right here, but I want to write out two memories of my Grandmas I want recorded.
Grandma D sent a package on my mission for Christmas that included two of everything,  turtlenecks, lipstick, hair stuff. It was the only present my companion got. <3
Grandma Grover would make us something every christmas. Every grandkid. I got blankets, quilts, wall art, towels, and always jammies. Grandma Grover is probably a huge part of what made Christmas magical for me and my life.
I'm going to go out on a limb, and say because of the moon position again this week, this again makes me frustratingly emotional. :)