Sparkles on my Skin

-I love sparkles on my skin. How old do you think I have to be to be considered senile enough to bath in glitter, and have it be ok?

-Canyon- "Let's Go, Psycho!"

-Creeden- Player, or "Play-her" (forehead smack)

-Waves. Love my wave earrings. Love my wave ring. Love my wave necklace.

-Canyon said at Rigby Lake. "This sure isn't very big waves!" Funny, and sad.

-Paralyzed by schedule. It's a very real trauma.
My summer. My messy house. My weedy yard.
It's due  to the paralyzation of planning for the next thing. New York, Virginia, Elite Camp, Swim Lessons, Camping, Reunion, Trek.

Inspiration. ? Choice.

What chemical is lacking when my vision sees only, dead leaves, yellow grass, weeds.
Missing the forest for the trees.

Indifferent. Need. Want. Desire.

I think these are the levels of care in a relationship. And, when I think about these, I think in only the level of what the other holds me. I started this thought process in regards to intimacy. (Which, yes, is not in the first two) But, really, isn't this truth for all relationships. The problem for me in the world is I am a person who wants level 3, or 4. I want to be Wanted. I want to be Desired.  Do you know that I dream, yes my dreams are that someone Wants me. They are infatuated with me. They think that I am amazing. (It's always an unknown face) They adore me. I am not sure I have ever been adored. I do really like that word though.

What honey?

-How many times a day can I say, "what Honey?" I think that is the quest, for my kids, my family to see if they can get me to a million.

-If you have kids when you are young, then you are taking care of them in your prime years, active years. So you don't surf. By the time you are not pulling them on the boogie board, or digging sand castles, or making sure they don't drowned, you are old. Your body hurts. Your joints, your back, your  head, your desire. So you don't surf.

-Crabs. Delightfully weird little creatures.

-Sunrises. Sunsets.

-Dolphins may be the most peaceful of all creatures, mostly due to the surroundings of when I see them.

-Ask my how I am.
Care how I am.

-Grounding. Balancing. Absorbing. Calm. Still. Here. = My current prayer.

New York

The smells. The traffic. The cost. The chaos. The mashing it in, and up.
Of my multiple personalities, New York brought out my introvert more than any thing has in several years. All I wanted to do was stay in my bed, pull the covers over my head, hide until check out.
Wait, or was that the redeye...

No Clothes

I should live in a place where the warmth, and the sun, and the sand provide an environment that the less the clothes one wears,  the better.
This also means that the responsibilities are minimal, and that the appointments, time clock, and expectations are gone.
Beautiful, fantastic.
Some day.

Collection of my madness

-Bedtime for you, is for me. It is so I can have a break from you. So, if you want me to tell you why you have to go to bed, it's because I have hit my limit of being nice today. I am done being interested, and focused. I have no more patience or tolerance left in any amount, and my compassion is sucked dry.
-Cutting my boys hair is definitely a labor of love.
-If I use multiple commas, does it mean I'm pausing extra long,,,
-May outside activities should be put on hold until June at least, but even better, July.
-I am still wearing 2 shirts, pants and tights, 2 sweatshirts, 2 coats, 2 pairs of socks, snow boots, and a hat with as many blankets as I have, that I haven't given away, to baseball and softball games.
-Sometimes Greys is the only motivation I have.
-Yep, I parked my car at my office and curled up for a 20 minute nap because my wednesday babysitter was at my house and I couldn't go home yet.
-I really will enjoy being old and taking multiple naps a day. Can that happen when I turn 43? oh, wait, I'm already there. Guess i better get on it.

one year.

I got the ring that I ordered for Rainy today. I wanted her birthstone in my mothers ring, but they couldn't add it. So I ordered one.  It's a little big, and I need to get it sized, but today is the one year. I didn't plan for it to come today, but, it did. My poor heart.