New York

The smells. The traffic. The cost. The chaos. The mashing it in, and up.
Of my multiple personalities, New York brought out my introvert more than any thing has in several years. All I wanted to do was stay in my bed, pull the covers over my head, hide until check out.
Wait, or was that the redeye...

No Clothes

I should live in a place where the warmth, and the sun, and the sand provide an environment that the less the clothes one wears,  the better.
This also means that the responsibilities are minimal, and that the appointments, time clock, and expectations are gone.
Beautiful, fantastic.
Some day.

Collection of my madness

-Bedtime for you, is for me. It is so I can have a break from you. So, if you want me to tell you why you have to go to bed, it's because I have hit my limit of being nice today. I am done being interested, and focused. I have no more patience or tolerance left in any amount, and my compassion is sucked dry.
-Cutting my boys hair is definitely a labor of love.
-If I use multiple commas, does it mean I'm pausing extra long,,,
-May outside activities should be put on hold until June at least, but even better, July.
-I am still wearing 2 shirts, pants and tights, 2 sweatshirts, 2 coats, 2 pairs of socks, snow boots, and a hat with as many blankets as I have, that I haven't given away, to baseball and softball games.
-Sometimes Greys is the only motivation I have.
-Yep, I parked my car at my office and curled up for a 20 minute nap because my wednesday babysitter was at my house and I couldn't go home yet.
-I really will enjoy being old and taking multiple naps a day. Can that happen when I turn 43? oh, wait, I'm already there. Guess i better get on it.

one year.

I got the ring that I ordered for Rainy today. I wanted her birthstone in my mothers ring, but they couldn't add it. So I ordered one.  It's a little big, and I need to get it sized, but today is the one year. I didn't plan for it to come today, but, it did. My poor heart.

The days in the birth control packet.

You know that packet that that has a pill for every day marked out?
 I need to use that to mark down my moods. Or, my emotions. Or, my stresses.
I am curious as to how all of those would coincide with that particular pill month after month. Is it every 2nd tuesday that I hate everyone. Or, is it every 4th wednesday that I want to quit, and cry, and want to be held. I am curious.
It's the 4th wednesday, just in case you are wondering.

Where are all the Women

There are only 2 genders. Male and Female.
It seems a pretty 50/50 sort of thing.
50% of the world is men, 50% of the world is women.
Maybe a few variations in time, caused by death, disease, or war.
So unless I fail to understand the extremities, there was never a wipe out of the women in the world.
But, where are they?
Where are they?
They are not in the scriptures.
They are not in the leadership, histories, or stories.
Only maybe 10%.
But that's not true.
They are there.
They are holding families together. Cooking every meal, taking care of every child, providing a landing for every man in those histories, or stories.
They are the strong ones. They are the overlooked, unheard heroes.
Then and now.
I'm so ticked.
Women take it all on, take care of everything, and yet there is no award for holding the world together.

I'm a Runner.

I may not run everyday. I actually haven't ran in weeks. Months. Probably almost a year. But I'm a runner. Want to know how I know? It was sunshiny out Saturday afternoon. I went out for a walk. But guess what? I couldn't just walk. I had to run. I had to RUN! Well, maybe jog. But, it felt awesome :)